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i’m in a medical center about to undergo a revolutionary full-body scan. i ingest some sort of liquid that will course through my veins. i get to stand up for this scan and i’m told that it will be able to see everything in my body, down to the molecule. i’m hoping to get preventative care for life, i think. while waiting to be seen by the doctors, K walks in. i’m completely surprised by her presence, but i find it exciting. she wants to talk with me. now we’re in some sort of water park ride, like a giant bathtub that swirls around and around. we’re seated together, going round and round, with K leaning against me. she is telling me about her life. i get the sense that she wants to be close to me and i find it wrong somehow. i ask her about her husband. i say something like “you’re still with A, right?” she replies “yeah, i still like him.” it was a sort of miscommunication. we keep swirling around and now i find her resting her back agains my chest. she’s wearing only panties and i can look over her shoulder to see her breasts. i want so badly to tell her i’m sorry, to tell her my regrets, to make up for the past.
i wake up and find myself saddened. i want so badly to go back to that dream.
