july 12, 2012
the dreams: i’m in some large compound but i don’t know why. it seems huge and expansive and small and confined at the same time. there are concrete and dirt mounds all around. the people trapped there with me seem to know that something happens at a certain time each day, and that there’s nothing that changes. regardless of what we do differently that day, the morning will bring the same scenarios all over again. i make a mental note that it’s like the movie ‘groundhog day.’ i instinctively know that what is to come is our captors will release wild boar into our compound, and that they will devour us. it’s my first day there but i know that it will happen every day. but i devise a plan to turn the tables on our captors. i find green beans. knowing that the boar will be attracted to them, i toss them near and over the gate that leads out to the captors. my hope is the boar will charge the gate, breaking it down to allow us to escape.
KS and JS are there. so is sawyer from ‘lost’. i’m holding a daddy long-legs spider and i’m feeding it to luscious. at the same time i’m disgusted by the fact that she’s eating it. and i realize that i had a dream within a dream about this moment. that i dreamt luscious would eat the spider and here she is eating it. and then i see an enormous daddy long-legs. it’s body is cream colored, with black markings, almost like the transformers logo. its legs are almost like those of a crab–firm, spiny, and very long. it’s a terrifying spider and i think luscious shouldn’t eat this one, it might turn on her.
